- Been Busy -

Sorry.Long time didn't update huh? Been very busy with work lately. Anyway, i did went to the Dinner & Dance. Due to my colleagues persistent! LOL. I only slept for an hour that day and by 3 o'clock, all of them started to call me to wake me up!!! LOL... SAAAYYYAAANNNGGGG all of you!! LOL I wore a very low cut dress, v neck, black color, with purple cardigan and shoes. The only beautiful thing that is on me is my shoes! hehehe Then i took a cab to the hotel to meet up with Abg Sha'ari, Chau, Sheryl, Hew & Kak Janby. We took photos with each other.Then, ended up late bcuz of Sheryl and got lost on the road driven by Kak Janby.

Finally we reached there at about 8pm. We got a seat and chill out first. FInally we ate. But i only ate the steak and sushi. Got alot of food to eat but i didn't eat that much. Then finally at about 1am, everythin ended and everyone went back home. But only me, Abg Sha'ari and the Sales Team. We chill out and dance the night away and finally off to Esplanade to have some coffee. Then somethin unexpected happened. I won't elaborate. But it's somethin good out of it and i still can't believed it happened. Finally at about 3.30am, i went home with a smile on my face.

As days goes by, I'm getting closer with this other sumone. He's been there for me since the beginning, givin me advises and such. Never thought we would get closer each day. This sumone cares alot for me. And me to him. But im still keepin my options open. Maybe ill learn to love again someday. Otherwise, i'll just keep it as it is and befriend more guys & gals.

Oh..our counter has been renovated and haiz...what a disappointment! LOL. It's kinda nice from the outside but from the inside, it's a disaster. SO squeezy!! Yesterday, after work, i hangout and the front desk and Fandee & Man from Modesto's keep callin me and talked to me. LOL... Never talk this much with them before. Then went to the back of Modesto's and got a free bread pudding courtesy of Fandee! kekekeek thanx bro! Hangout with them for a short while then went to the canteen to eat real food. Abg Sha'ari came down soon afterwards. He scolded me for not goin back after work and hang around those guys from Modesto's. Wah...da mcm bapak bapak lak ni org! Eeesshhh.... After that stern warning from Assistant Manager, i went back home! Sedih kan!! LOL...

Now bloggin and chatting before goin back to sleep! kekeke i miss that someone dearly already. Hm.... Is this a blessin in disguise after a terrible break up?? I dunnoe...we'll see how it goes.... ciaoz

Oh..will post some D&D pic soon....

- Dinner & Dance -

- Dinner & Dance -

Hm...today is Dinner & Dance Day. Im still not sure whether i'll be goin or not. I mean, im still not sociable enough to attend such functions. If it's only TES of course, i'll go without segan silu punye! But this involves 4 other hotels man!!! Abg Yus confirm goin cuz he already planned for his outfit and hairdo wateva!! Abg Shaari said he'll be goin as well, same as Chau. But I paiseh lah to wear a dress and go to the function. Never go to Dinner & Dance before in my entire life! Never attned a party before!! If only he's there with me.....*sigh* But then this D&D doesn't allow us to bring our dates i hear.. i dunnoe...if it's true, then it's rubbish!! hahahahaha

I finished work at 3.45am just now. Felt sleepy so muchin on Double cheeseburger and strawberry yoghurt drink which Abg Shaari bought for me! Thanx bro! Right now im feelin so full!! Hm...wonder who else is goin to the D&D. I'll see how later. Now, i feel so sleepy and my right eye is twitchin! Hm...somethin is gonna be so fcukin wrong! Either a checkin out guest or somethin to do with me??? I dunnoe...Still sick anyway....

To You..... Dun u dare say u're attached cuz im gonna kill ur spirits around me!! I still love you. Yes no doubt i still do!! But circumstances leads me to this!!! So...ya.... ur willin to sacrifice your love for her. But i don't! I won't go thru her! No more! Enough of her! Bye! Take care! And just get lost! This was how cruel you were to me back then. So now here's my turn!

- 2Years Down the Drain -

- 2 Years Down The Drain -

Last 2days, were our 2years of being together. But it was not meant to be. *teary* How I want to be with him again but circumstances doesn't allow us to be together anymore. Im very very saddenned by it! I cried of course. But him doesn't really care hurts me too. He used to hurt me lotsa times. And now i noe ive hurt him real bad but then.... *sigh*

Anyway, this Friday will be our D&D. Not sure whether i'll attend. Cuz im still sick. Saturday, night shift again throughout. Me & Hew will be on rotating night shift for every 2weeks until the newcomers are really hands on with the work then shifts will be normal again. Phew!! Really tired!! But guess, it'll make me focus more on work. I noe ive been overworkin since the breakup 2mths ago hence, im sick rite now. But *sigh*, i dunnoe. i really really miss him! I want him back in my life! No matter how cruel he is, i still want him. Gosh and to think this blog is all bout NEW BEGINNING!!! * Go Mia* *roll eyes*

Hoping to go for more outing with my colleagues. Hoping to noe more frens but due to work, ive no time to socialise with outside pple. Only thru IRC but that's very rare of course. No time to even on pc, except while doin night shift at work, can only checked emails and blogging. No ircs no msn nothin! Chet!

Oklah .... I still have some work left to do. And it's already 5.17am. GTG. Bye pple.....*lethargic*

- Me Sick -

- Me Sick -

Yesterday morning, after work, i decided to go to Jurong Polyclinic. I can't stand it anymore. Feel so feverish. Took a taxi to go there. Upon reachin, saw sweety...or i should say my X and we registered together. Me feelin so weak, din talked much to him. I got to see the doctor first and he has to wait for so long. While waiting for my number to come up, i was so weak that i can feel my face flushin hot!!! So freakin hot!!!! Finally the doctor said i was to be given 2days mc! Im glad for that but at the same time, i was wondering who is goin to cover me for the night shift!!???

Haiz.... i worked myself hard after the breakup and this is wat i get!! Being sick!! *cries* But he doesnt even care! He keep talkin about tat new sumone and was so proud of her without thinkin that im really sick and just want to be there with him. Cuz after takin my medicine and everythin, i wanted to be there with him. Wait with him for his turn. But he kept goin on and on about that new sumone, showin me the sms and everythin that, me being really really REALLY weak and sick, just stood up and walked away slowly with tears rolling down my cheeks. He knew that if i kept quiet, means im really really sick and tat i dun want to pick a fight. But there he was sayin all tat feelin so proud of his new gerl. I gathered all my energy just to go to 2nd level and wanted to wait with him. But tat was wat i got in return.

Well, in the past, he never came over to my house to visit me whenever i'm sick! NEVER!!!! Can you imagine tat??? While he? Everytime he's sick, there i'll be coming over to his house, takin care of him, took leave just to go see doctor with him!! But u noe wat he said yesterday??? "ade i suruh u teman i slama ni??" GOD!!! Isnt that shows that he doesnt and never appreciate me all this while????!!!!!! I was so heartbroken when he said that!! I was taken for a ride all this while??? I tot no could not be! But he was really cruel even after we broke up and even when i am really really SICK!!!

I reda!! Apa u nak kate, kate lah.... Kalau u betul da ade kwn yg baru, then just go and dun msg me anymore!

I want to rest. Tomorrow, im forced to work! Good nite pple! *cryin, feeling weak*

- Missing Him -

- Missing Him -

Missing him so much!!! Only GOD knows how much i missed him!! But he chose not to believe me. Well, anyway, i'm doin night shift this week. Very tired and im sick!!! I think it's because of a growth of a tooth at the laaaaaaassssttttt place!! Makes me feverish, shivering, ear blocked, toothache and very weak body! But i can't afford to take mc as there'll be no one to cover my shift! *sad*

And I was supposed to work morning shift this week but Wayne's last day was last Tuesday. Haiz.... My plan to go and see the fireworks with my x was ruined. I was so bloody upset upon knowing that i have to do night shift! Now? Im just resting after finished doin all my work. Picturing the image of me & him watchin NPD fireworks last year 2005. That was the happiest day of my life! To see something beautiful with someone you love. But I won't get to be with him again for good this time i guess. Not even if it's my last breath, i won't get to see him again! I just have to move on though im really blank right now!!

Ok then...my toothache is really gettin to me!! So irritating!!! Write to you again some other day.

To You, pls take care and hope you'll be happy with your current girlfriend and hope you'll treat her right! Loving you always......

-Been Busy-

Sorry it's been quite a long time since ive updated my blog. Been quite bz this past few days. Now im workin on the afternoon shift. Anywayz, FarEast will be having D&D on the 18th. Im not even sure if im goin or not but ive bought some dresses! LOL Kiasu seh!! It's nice dress which ive never wear like that before but i thought i should try and wear dresses. Though i noe i'll look pudgy cuz of fats here & there! LOL

At work, everything's great. Got 2new girls coming in yesterday. Just hope they can bear with the stress and everything. Otherwise, i won't get to go Batam trip with the rest of my colleagues!! LOL

k for now, i want to eat first and then bathe and get ready to go to work. Im abit sad still cuz i still miss him but..... nah..... laterz....